april fools

ha-ha-ha! don't know why i'm happy today -- maybe i'm an april fool... heck, i'm happy! happy! happy! happier than i ever was in the last 6 months. today's "happy" seems to be a different kind of happiness -- i'm actually bursting with glee and that "feeling of well-being" -- hwahahaha! i never thought i'd use those words -- damn. =)

the last 6 months were pretty mind-blowing... everything rolled into one. depressing. exciting. happy. really happy. kilig. shitty. confusing. crystal clear. etcetera. etcetera. it was one roller coaster ride i'll never forget. maybe i crashed and got burned a bit but i couldn't bring myself to regret the moment i decided to jump. and now, thinking about everything still makes me smile that goofy smile. yup. yup. i'm doing jumping jacks right now. and i'm still thinking... did i really get burned playing with fire? maybe. maybe not.

or maybe i'm just not addicted anymore. just maybe.
i'm crossing my fingers.

i wish i could move on in the speed of light.

and i hope i'm not just fooling myself. oh well. let's go do jumping jacks.