nothing new for the new year?

nothing. and i'm still rambling.

no, i don't have a new year's resolution.
and no, i don't think it's useless... sometimes, thoughts count.

yep, even when the action takes such a long time to happen. or NOT happen at all.

i don't wanna start the year being cynical. one thing i've learned from the last few months of last year was to be appreciative of all things good and bad. yes, that includes the ugly. and some wrong things that felt right.

i guess that's the beauty of not knowing what life may bring. of not knowing what choices are the best ones. i get to make mistakes.

mistakes i learn from and mistakes i choose to continue doing for reasons even i wouldn't accept if i weren't feeling what i'm feeling right now.

I CHOOSE.

these two words served as my safety net. and though it didn't save me from getting my feelings hurt, i like to think it saved my pride somehow. for a control freak seduced by the idea of an uncontrollable unknown, it's better than nothing. it's quite a good deal, really.

and i wouldn't have to blame anyone if i fall. i wouldn't have to expect anybody to say "i'm sorry." i wouldn't have to regret anything because i made a choice.

CHOICE = RISK

this year wouldn't be any different than the last. i'll just be making different choices.