scary thoughts...

realizing you've fallen for someone
when it was already too late.

wanting to risk everything for someone
without thinking twice.

finding happiness with the person
who would always make you cry.

longing for someone
who can't be yours.

still stuck in that moment...

you gotta stand up straight. carry your own weight.

these tears are going nowhere baby...

i was unconscious, half asleep.

the water's warm til you discover how deep.

i wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall.

it's a long way down to nothing at all.

and if the day won't last.

and if our way should falter along the stony pass. it's just a moment.

this time will pass.

 
                   -- U2, Stuck in a Moment You Can't Get Out Of

my day so far...

well, i haven't washed my face and it's already 2:30pm. still in my favorite pyjamas and my pinoy big brother shirt. great day so far. i ate, i checked my mail, read a little and now i'm blogging. nothing comes to mind. nothing i want to share really...since i'm still thinking and trying to organize my thoughts, my feelings...and probably my life too.

being here in florida made me realize how big a chicken i am. i can't sleep. it's probably my insomia, which became chronic, you know...difficulty falling asleep, waking up frequently in between and waking up too early... fucked up, really. i feel like a sleep-deprived racoon. i looked like one this morning.

or maybe it isn't just the insomnia. hehe. i realized i'm so afraid of the dark when i'm alone. (it's different when you're not, believe me, hahaha...fearless goddess!) i guess i won't be watching too many scary movies anytime soon...

some pics in L.A.

me, supposedly showing you the Hollywood sign...

with Ryan (boyfriend ni janna! HWHAT?!?, Janna  and me at the Hilton in Anaheim

Cathie, me and Jad...



 

sayin' CHEEESE!!!

with pao in L.A.

really good friends are hard to find. i'm so grateful i still have most of them. like pao-pao. who showed me around even when i was such a pain in the ass. hehe.